Thursday, January 24, 2013

Guess Who's Back!?

Has it really been 3 years since I last blogged about my ordeal? Has it really been almost 5 years since my surgery? Insane.

Lets do a quick update of where I am at today.

When our hero last appeared, she was 50lbs down after having her port site moved due to tearing in the abdominal wall. When you start at 260 lbs, 50lbs may seem like a lot, but it took many more pounds for her to be happy.

2011 - Initial Surgery
2012 - Port Move Surgery - School for Paralegal
2013 - Down 50 lbs, plateaued at 200 lbs - DIVORCED

Now, I know you must be thinking and wondering how my weight loss is going. It is a long, tough ride, but it is going (more on that later). I also became a paralegal for a small, 1 man firm and have been running the show ever since.

In 2013 I became the recipient of a divorce, which only made me lose more weight! I went from 200lbs, down to 180 and met the ABSOLUTE love of my life and soul mate (I wont gush about him right now, but he is the real deal).

After therapy and overall self healing, I realized that I had been mentally abused for 10 years. I never saw the signs until I was out of a relationship that was poison. When you find someone who treats you like an absolute gift from GOD, you look back and realized how unappreciated and tormented you were in the past by others. You don't have to be physically hit to be abused.

After starting my life over from scratch with nothing to my name, the only place I could possibly go is UP. I had so much time for myself, I cooked very healthy meals, ran every day and did racquetball. The weight fell off. I was in the shape of my LIFE.

Early 2014, Age 27, 160lbs. This is the lowest I have ever been. Size 12, on verge of size 10, wearing a medium in most things (UNHEARD OF, I used to have to do XXL). Band was working perfectly, I was not overly hungry, ate small meals and was satisfied, only a couple issues here and there with getting stuck.

I fell in love, and we fell hard. A slow and steady, healthy relationship developed and of course, I got comfortable and gained some weight back. Another reason I gained weight back was because I got lots of fluid removed from my band.  I was getting stuck almost every meal, every single thing I ate would get stuck. Fluid out - weight on.

May 2015, Age 28, 186lbs.  A rude awakening occurred when I was asked to be a bridesmaid in a wedding for August 2015. There was no way I was going to fit that dress now that I've gained close to 25lbs. Time to crack down. Not wanting to have the issue with my band being a restrictive problem, I decided instead of getting a fill, I would do it the hard way. Pure diet and exercise.

June 11, 2015, Age 28, 176lbs.  20 minutes of yoga every morning before work, 9 mile bike ride or 2.5 mile jog/walk/crawl and lots of arm/chest weights every day. 10lbs down and 15 more to go. I know I can do this, the willpower inside of me is just burning to get back to that 160 mark.

Now, here are some pictures for your entertainment.

My heaviest at 260lbs.

A good 40-50 lbs down

Another 10

The lowest I've ever been 160

And here is me today at 176